Friday, November 11, 2005

update on stage set?

So here's another update of the stageset, for all of you who don't really want to know!! It's going well, though it's still difficult. God is guiding me through it though when I let Him, and when I don't it is evident in my attitude towards it all. I'm not sure I've ever felt my need for Him so much as I have these days when I'm doing all of this work for Him and for other stuff too. The problem is, I spend too much of my time not thinking about my need for Him and consequently not thinking about doing something about how much I need him. It feels difficult to completely transform the mind in this sense, and I wish I found it easier, because I know (in my mind) how much easier things would be if I just relied on God for my daily need (emotional, spiritual as well as physical).

God, I want to, I need to depend only on YOU because in
in my weakness your POWER is made PERFECT.
Lord, Teach me more about you and show me
DAILY that your grace is suffient for me, and
allow me to glory in my weakness so that the
POWER of Christ may overshadow
Everything I do each day.
Lord, will you Transform my attitude,
Challenge my ways,
Guide my thinking
Draw me closer to
Your Heart and Will.
I need you God.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Window To My World.

I know the start of the new week was technically Sunday but since i didn't do anything for the first two days of the week, it s my intention to take today (Tuesday) as the beginning of a brand new week.

I've been more than a little disheartened recently through a whole load of things that have been happening, and perhaps more significantly not happening. It's been so incredibly busy I've begun to feel I've neglected the stuff which should keep me going and keep me strong, keep me sailing in the right direction or something similarly profound. I need to get back to basics, I need to examine my roots... where am I going and witch whose help. If I was relying on the right sources would I really feel anxious for anything, would I realy feel stressed to my eyeballs, I think not.

So here, I propose a challenge, to myself but also to anyone who may be in a similar situation. In order to renew ones mind, tap into the power, but not only that, the perfect peace of the creator, one must realise that He gives this peace (but yet power) and take the appropriate actions to reforming our relationship with Him. It may broken off due to busyness, hurt, pain, or it may have never been formed. Either way, we must bridge the distance between Him and ourselves. This seems to me this morning, the only way.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Later on this morning will be another day...


This is tonight's achievement (not the irish girl on the right but the background...)
It is 2.15am. I am tired. I ache all over. I am just home from painting at church. This is ridiculous. I can just about form basic sentences.
I am going to bed.
On a brighter not... it was actually an acheivement and it could have gone a lot worse than it did.

Monday, October 31, 2005

head hurts.

My head hurts even thinking about everything I thought about tonight. Does that make ANY sense? I think mostly my head hurts with the thought of everything I should be thinking about (and most importantly doing) but yet am not.

I'm not in the greatest frame of mind right now, I think that means I should go to bed and stop thinking. Goodnight (P.s I don't know why I post anywhere when my post is like this). Go figure.

Friday, October 21, 2005


All the hard work finally seems more worthwhile when it actually starts to look like something we wanted it to look like. Tonight was good, we all worked as a team, everyone had good ideas and were able to voice them. People started to show that they actually had some talent. Fair enough we made a few little mistakes and had to fix them, but you know what - that doesn't matter.

Tonight I left church feeling like, we, as a team had acheived something much greater than we had done for such a long time. It's been a long hard slog but I can only pray that we can continue to work so well. Time flew by though and before we knew it we were leaving church at 1230am! Crikey!

I'm feeling good for it all now and thinking that perhaps I am going to head for a shower before i go to bed. I'm very tired and have to be in church early in the morning, I am also praying that I am awake enough to be able to get there in time. I've also got Matthew level 2 tomorrow at 2pm, and I love that lecture, I hope I don't miss it today.

Good night to all.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Praise in the Morning.

Thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Updating finally.

Hey, so I've not updated in quite a while, simply because I didn't feel there was anything important enough to write (that hasn't stopped me before I hear you say!).

Well since last time, being back to uni is fully underway, with thoughts of essays and exams and presentations. Oh the joys! Actually there is quite a bit of seriousness in that, it has been a bit of fun. I found out on the first day back to class that a friend is in one of my classes, and the woman lecturing this class was a woman I had last year who was good, very helpful. Bit of a downfall in this class was the fact we'd signed up for a presentation two weeks into the course! But no worries about that - It went so well! We had powerpoints, audio bible, class activities etc etc. In short, we rocked, people thanked us for clearing up some confusion they had, uch how good are we! Lol.

In other news, we have started back on the stage set design, paint has been bought. I really wish it was over, fun though it's been, I want it to be finished!! Lol. Yeh, it's just way too much stress. Thinking about it though, it has been really great to see how John is willing to help, and how Nikki deals with situations like this. It's all very interesting, people watching you know? And of course being more involved with the church - I really will have no reason to be there when this is all over. I will miss it, although to be fair most of what I have been doing there over the past couple of days has been sitting around!

So I'm bored now so I think I'm gonna go sit on the couch and watch Friends, aaaaah never fails to make me feel better!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Amazing How People can push for an agenda

The European Commission has just announced an agreement whereby English will be the official language of the European Union rather than German, which was the other possibility.

As part of the negotiations, the British Government conceded that English spelling had some room for improvement and has accepted a 5- year phase-in plan that would become known as "Euro-English".

In the first year, "s" will replace the soft "c". Sertainly, this will make the sivil servants jump with joy. The hard "c" will be dropped in favour of "k". This should klear up konfusion, and keyboards kanhave one less letter.

There will be growing publik enthusiasm in the sekond year when the troublesome "ph" will be replaced with "f". This will make words like fotograf 20% shorter.

In the 3rd year, publik akseptanse of the new spelling kanbe expekted to reach the stage where more komplikated changes are possible. Governments will enkourage the removal of double letters which have always ben a deterent to akurate speling. Also, al wil agre that the horibl mes of the silent "e" in the languag is disgrasful and it should go away.

By the 4th yer people wil be reseptiv to steps such as replasing "th" with "z" and "w" with "v".

During ze fifz yer, ze unesesary "o" kan be dropd from vords kontaining "ou" and after ziz fifz yer, ve vil hav a reil sensibl riten styl.

Zer vil be no mor trubl or difikultis and evrivun vil find it ezi tu understand ech oza. Ze drem of a united urop vil finali kum tru.

Und efter ze fifz yer, ve vil al be speking German like zey vunted in ze forst plas. If zis mad you smil, lev a koment!

Sunday, September 25, 2005

battle

So - I want to update tonight because I've had so many good chats and nice surprises today.

I don't want to update because I have a sore head, gunky nose, sore feet, sore hand, and really just wanna go to bed.


I think that overall not posting wins (obviously only to some extent otherwise you wouldn't be reading this) - so goodnight to all. x

receiving

We receive from God by faith...
But we receive from satan by fear.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

I've been eating good cookies today.


NOTE - I already wrote this entry and the computer was gay and froze. I always find that the second attempt at an entry is less coherent.

So yeh, cookies, I know probably not the most interesting topic for a blog entry, but it's as interesting as my day got - seriously. Today was the last lazy day of my lazy-week, which is kinda sad, but I'm also glad it's over now. It's been a crazy, hectic, jam-packed summer (totally didn't expect that) but last week I just realised that it was about time I took a little time to chill out and de-stress before going back to Uni next week. So yes, the point of that being, I did nothing except go to the loo a couple of times, and eat some cookies over at some friends' house.

Moving on lol... not that anyone will have read this far, but nonetheless moving on.... Uni starts back on Tuesday and by then I hope to have it all sorted out. It's really been a bit of a nightmare seeing hurdle after hurdle appear in the distance, and some of them seeming as though they might be impossible to pass. It was also kinda scary thinking that it might not work and because of that perhaps doubting God's part in me being there. Maybe that was the most scary bit. I guess that's why I took a week out too. I'm hoping that the classes which I have chosen, and the ones I've been particularly looking forward to turn out as expected.

I'm gonna go to bed now, and hopefully sleep, cos it's something I ain't been doing much of lately. Last night resorted to taking some pills which I was assured would help me sleep. They did a little but I'm not sure if it was just a result of a tiring day (yeh I know a tiring day on a lazy week, ironic) yesterday. So yeh, maybe I'll pop one of those again tonight, maybe not.

So see ya (or not)!
Remember to leave me a comment cos it makes me feel loved.

Like, seriously I don't understand some people. - READ ON.

1. I don't understand why you say my blog is topic specific, I'm just not seeing it sorry. Unless that topic is 'everything in general'. Please feel free to let me know what led you to make this statement - if it was anything other than marketing, which I do hope it was.

2. If you are going to leave a marketing post on my blog, then at least be sensible enough to leave a web URL to your blog or product website. No one is going to go searching for something they didn't ask you to post about, you have more chance if you leave the address!

3. Don't go for the 'I've seen yours now you can see mine' line. It made me laugh, but yeh, I'm not visiting your site, you didn't even try as hard as the other guys.

4. If any of you actually wanted to get some respect, you might try answering the question I actually asked in the first place. It would have made me a lot happier, and perhaps I would have considered looking at what you had to offer rather than taking the 'sip' out of your feeble marketing attempts publicly.

(P.S. I might check out the two topic-specific blogs which you mentionned to me, your post didn't irritate me the way the others did. Such is life.)

Over and Out.

Repying?

Hey - can anyone (and yeh, I do mean ANYONE) advise me on the best way to reply to people's questions? I really want people to comment on my blog and it would be good to even get a bit of chat going on - but how do I do this? When they ask questions do I post the reply on their page or just assume that they will remember to come back and visit? I know that friends and people like that will come back again, but will people who were just passing through but left a question ever remember which blog they were on?

Advice please?

Thanks. (In advance of the answer of course!)

Thursday, September 22, 2005

SNAKES&LADDERS

SNAKES
That’s just about it - A great big game of snakes and ladders. I’ve always noticed (and maybe it’s just when I play the game) that I never get any ladders to climb up. Always looking around and people seem to have head start here or a head start there, or a wee boost in the right direction. I’m one of those people who could sit here for hours telling you about how I’ve always played fairly, moving on square by square, not climbing many (if any) ladders, but always landing on the snake and ending up on my backside at the bottom. Yeah, you got it, that’s my *feeling sorry for myself* story of the day.
LADDERS

That’s not the end of the story though, because as I sat here thinking about how I always ended up on the snake, I snapped back into reality. I realised that not so long ago (in the grand scheme of it all) I started off on the biggest ladder of them all. I’ve been standing a few rungs up on this ladder, totally unaware that’s it’s there, under my feet whenever I wanna move, and get closer. The problem is, we can so often fail to see that we’re on a ladder we can climb up, (it’s like not noticing someone owes you rend in Monopoly).

You see, that ladder has been provided by the faithful Lord Jesus Christ. It is the answer to all of our prayers of always sliding back down those snakes. He doesn’t take away the snakes, and in actual fact often there will be more, but what He does do, is provide us with the ladder when it’s needed and when His purposes are accomplished in situations. The scripture, ask and it shall be given unto you springs to mind. Yeh, so go on, ask for that ladder you’re in need of, ask for that assurance of salvation, ask for a personal friend and Saviour – He’s there: - ask Him now.


This started off as a personal, hurting post, but you know what, that’s not what it’s all about. I’m glad it didn’t end up that way.
Peace Out.


Wednesday, September 14, 2005

wow

Wow I feel like it's Christmas morning. I might explain once my head has calmed down a little. wow.

(Any paragraph with three wows from me is probably worth noting lol)

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Leave me a comment..........

Please!!!

*sings* If I was a pussy-cat...

Please God, Let me Catch just 1 Mouse today!



.......this would *definitely* be my prayer for today. Lol.

People jokes - (a change from blonde jokes)

A group of scientists decided that mankind had advanced far enough that they no longer needed God. So they drew straws, and the loser went to find God. When he found Him, he dithered a bit, made some small talk about the weather, and finally came out with it.
"OK, look God," he said, "We've mastered space exploration, we can cure any disease, we can talk instantaneously with people around the world, we can clone human beings; basically, we don't need you any more."
God listened patiently. Finally He spoke.
"Tell you what," He said. "We'll settle this with a man-making contest. Each of us will make a man, and the first one to finish wins."
"Sure," said the man, who headed off to consult with his colleagues.
"Wait a minute," called God.
The man turned."We're going to do this the real way; the way I did it in the beginning."
"No problem," responds the man, bending down to grab a handful of clay.
"No, no, no," says God. "You get your own dirt."


Taken from www.geocities.com/heartland

So - whats the news?


Do you ever get to a stage where so much happens in one week that the longer you leave the updating the more impossible it becomes?  Yeh – that’s where I’m at.

From Friday to Wednesday I spent time in Edinburgh with Ruth, it was a great time (at least I think so) and it was awesome to hang out with Ruth again and just do silly stuff like we used to do all the time!  You want an example – umm…. On Friday night we ate the hugest steak pie the world has ever seen, which we bought for a meagre £1.06.  Great huh?!  We also did other fun stuff like climb to the top of Arthur’s Seat!  It really was good fun.  I’m not going to bore you with more details because no doubt it was only us who found it fun!

OOOOOHHHHH wait – one last thing about it.  We found a Mr. Boom video and watched it, was thoroughly exciting – no that’s a lie, buying the video was the second most exciting thing to switching it off after we had watched it.  If you remember Mr. Boom I think you should email me NOW!!  Thanks!

What else is news – Everything is News!  Lol… If you don’t get the joke and want to, you’re sad but you can ask me to find out (so I can laugh at you for being sad and asking).

I had a really cool chat with a guy I know about hearing from God.  He asked some questions which pretty much everyone asks about the subject,  but then also asked some questions which really got me thinking.  It was a good chat, in my opinion, I hope he thinks about it some more, because I know my Christian life was majorly changed by the discovery that God actually spoke and that I could hear Him in different ways.  I know that probably sounds crazy to like, soooo may folk out there, but never mind.  Such is life!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Tonight's Updates (After Such Hard Graft on Blog Layout!)

Sooo Crazy, I’ve spent a stupid amount of time updating this blog in the past 24 hours. It’s time that I could have spent doing something else, but never mind, I’ve done it now and hopefully I won’t have to play with it for quite a long time to come!

Discovery Group
This was actually quite good today, and I had a fairly nice time. That was unusual since I’m always dreading going, and today I was almost intent on sleeping through it. However, I woke up at like, 7.20pm and we’re supposed to be there at 7.30pm, so going seemed like the right thing to do.
Now the group has split into two, it will be interesting to se how everyone keeps contact with those in the other group. When we popped over to Mike’s group it already felt kind of odd, and as I had suspected there was always going to be someone who played the, ‘we’re the better group’ card. Yeh, ok whatever: - grow up!

Extra Cash
I always get amazed when God answers my prayers, especially when I have even forgotten I’ve asked him! I’ve been struggling financially a bit lately and I’ve been taught (and know it works from past experience) that we should always pray about these things. Today I was given an opportunity to do a little work in my church over the next couple of weeks (which happens to be the time when I struggle most as it’s before my student money comes in). It’s not any majorly important work, and in fact it’s pretty menial like, cleaning: - but that doesn’t matter, I need the cash badly, God knows that and the church need someone to do it. Since that’s pretty much adding up to a job for me, I’ve taken it. Let’s just see how well I do at this cleaning stuff, I’m hardly the best at it!!

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

The Day on the Mountaintop.


The Beauty of His Majesty

I love this picture, so much so that I just had to post it. It reminds me of the glory of Gods creation and the fact that if he can create something so perfect and beautiful but yet still choses to use me to do his work then He is a pretty special God.

His ways are beyond my thinking, but His thinking is well beyond my understanding.

God, I pray that just like this day when I stood on top of the hill looking at your creation when I felt on top of the world, you will remind me of this feeling when I do not feel so high. I also pray that when it is your will for me to be learning how to love you from the valley that I will know it is right for me to be there. I love you Lord -show me more of your will in my life. Amen

Updated intentions

I just thought I should announce my new intentions to the world, well not really thought that I should, but thought I would.  


  1. Be more disciplined
Well it’s pretty much self explanatory that I plan to be more disciplined in my life, in many areas.  The main area I plan to get better in is my walk with God, I want there to be no question over whether I spent some time with God both in the mornings and the evenings, no matter how tired I am.  I also want to be able to spend some time writing down my thoughts either on paper or on here, and be able to make a log of some of the things that God is saying to me.

  1. Keep a tidy house.
This one could pretty much fall in the same category as above, but due to its importance I’ve decided to give it a separate heading.  It, again explains itself, perhaps even more so than the other one, but I really need to make a huge effort in this department.

  1. Be more passionate about telling non-Christians about Faith.
I have realised recently that I am no longer as passionate as I used to be about telling non-Christians about Jesus, and about what He can do for them.  It’s something that I really wish I could get back, I really long to be serving God with the best of my ability in this department, and I know from experience that it involves a lot more work than the amount I am doing right now.  It makes me sad in a way when I think about that lack of passion in my life, but God spoke to me clearly about passion the other night, and it made me see just how important it is.  Check back here for updates on what God is saying on this matter and about my search for renewed passion.

I think that will just about do for now, you boys and girls wil be getting sore eyes reading my marathon posts!!

Over and Out.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Spam For Blogs?

I’ve noticed recently that I’m getting quite a few ‘comments’ on my blog which are basically just crap advertisements.  If you think about it, it’s such a low way to advertise your business, by going through other people’s personal blogs and then commenting!  It’s gotta be some sort of breach of privacy or something, but probably not!

Aaaaah incensed!

Over and out
Clare.

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Wish me luck!